Friday, June 15, 2007

Death as a ritual gone awry

Another passage in "Final Exam" strikes me as interesting.
During undergrad I volunteered for a hospice, so maybe I notice issues related to death and palliative medicine more than others. I've learned to see death as a natural part of life. Obviously when someone close to you dies, it's ok to feel a sense of loss and sadness, but I guess I also feel like it is bound to happen eventually and dwelling on it too long is what makes it ugly.
In regards to death, Dr. Chen says, "Along the way, we learn not only to avoid but also to define death as the result of errors, imperfect technique, and poor judgment. Death is no longer a natural event but a ritual gone awry."
I am comfortable with myself and how I see the world, but it does still make me feel better to see that although some may see my views as a little cold and unfeeling they could be much worse. Rather that seeing death as a natural part of life I could see it as some failed intervention aimed at life. To me at least, this seems worse. I hope that in the future I can refrain from blaming myself or treatments for the deaths of all my patients (though unfortunately and invariably, some deaths will be directly related to the treatment provided) and remember that death is an inevitable part of life, one that will come with or without my interventions.

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